Saturday, June 21, 2008

Jag antar din utmaning Sara (och skriver på svenska)
Here goes:

Vad gjorde du för 10 år sedan?
Kan inte svära i domstol under ed men trór att det var så här: För 10 år sen hade jag sommarlov och såg framemot en ridläger vecka, en Greklands semester, sovmorgon, cykelturer till Vaxsjön och andra roliga sommar saker. Dock fasade jag för 3 veckor i sommarstugan utan varmvatten och med utedass mitt i skogen (inte roligt om man är mörkrädd med livlig fantasi)

Vilka 5 saker finns på din att-göra-lista?
1. Planera sommaren för mig och kidsen ~ måste hitta roliga aktiviteter att göra utomhus (och inomhus om det berömda Seattle vädret kommer tillbaka)
2. Kolla upp vilka datum jag är hemma så jag vet när jag kan hitta på roligheter med Maria och Maria. La Push and Forks here we come :)
3. Leta efter och anmäla mig till roliga/intressanta kurser.
4. Spara ihop så jag har råd att läsa kurserna ~ 500 $ från mina host parents kommer man inte långt på.
5. Tvinga mig igenom de första kapitelna i the Host eftersom resten av boken ska vara bra.

Ställen du bott på?
Malmö ~ Dalslandsatan och ? (var för liten för att komma ihåg)
Höör ~ Lodjursstigen
Akureiry ~ Helgamagastraeti (sommar boende räknas)
Botell ~ 2711 202nd St SE (min nuvarande adress)

5 saker du skulle göra om du var billionär?
1. Köpa den (för mig) perfekta hästen.
2. Resa till platser jag nu bara kan drömma om ~ London, Alcatraz, Nya Zeeland ~
3. Shoe shopping in New York
4. Spara till framtida utgifter så som studielån (om jag någonsin går tillbaka till skolan), boende etc.
5. Donera en rejäl bit av det till mina favorit organisationer: WWF, Fair Trade, Rädda Barnen.

Saras utmaning är antagen och avklarad, och här är mina listor. Hur ser dina listor ut?

Sunday, June 08, 2008

I just came home after watching Sex and the City. it's 12.50 am. and I want to cry. because of a stupid movie.
why did the movie have this big inpact on me you might wonder....
even if the movie wasn't the greatest (not saying it wasn't good) it left me feeling alone. as long as I was swept up in SatC it was fine but in the car on my way home I started thinking (and that is as we all know never good) and thinking about the movie made me think about the core of SatC. the girls. their frindships. and it made me miss my friends at home. alot. alot alot.
I've never been away for a longer period like this and I miss normal everyday stuff. talking on msn. going to Lund and have lunch. going for walks. knowing that you have people just a phone call away if life feels like shit and you need to talk.
I miss that. and even if I have great friends here it's not the same. not nearly the same.
I normally deal with it by not thinking about it. I do stuff with the kids. watch GREEK. go shopping at the mall. and if everything else fails I go to Barnes & Noble.
but after watching the movie it was right in front of me and I can't ignore it tonight (I will do my best to supress these emotions in the morning). I want to go home right now and hang out with you guys. I won't even have to talk, I'll just sit and listen to your discussions and pretend I understand what you talking about.

and I'll be happy and not feel as alone and detached as I feel here.
I swear.

Thursday, June 05, 2008

today has been a day that started out on the shitty side.
grouchy kids in the morning made me feel like the worst au pair ever, like I don't know what I'm doing here and that I'm not doing anything right.
when it was lunch time I was still annoyed from yesterday when I had to eat rice for dinner (again). I'm so sick of it! I want potaoes! I love potatoes! gimme gimme gimme (potatoes)!
all we eat is rice rice rice. I hate rice! it's always the same. potatoes are good. they come in different types and shapes. wonderful German yellow ones. mashed ones. big ones in the oven. chopped up ones in the oven. new potatoes. potatoes with the special chicken sauce my dad makes. potatoes and salmon with the special salmon sauce. potatoes with the brown sauce my grandmother makes. chopped up oven potatoes with tsatziki outside on the patio in the summer. I love potatoes!
anyway. I did some laundry and M called to say she was taking the kids home. boy did that make me feel useful. not. I can't even drive the kids home today. what am I here for?
but then they came home and I helped B pack for her camp. that girl can pack. she's staying over one night and packed three t-shirts, three long sleeved shirts, three pairs of pants, two pairs of socks and two pairs of underwear. for two days and one night. I would probably have done the same a few years ago, but I've learned not to pack too much these last years when I've been living out of my backpack.
while we were packing M had made tea for us and B went into the kitchen and forbade me to enter. turns out she was setting the table for tea time. so sweet. she had put our tea cups on a tray and put some chocolate chip cookies on a plate on the tray and while we were having tea time she taught me the correct way to drink tea. apparently I've been doing it wrong all these years. if only I'd known.
after tea time with B I didn't feel like such a shitty au pair and K just came in here to show me that he dressed up Teddy in a t-shirt, K's underwear, B's watch and a bracelet to top it of.

if only the weather could get better and I could get some potatoes (I need them and I want them) everything would be ok.