Friday, March 09, 2007

for once in my life I actually believe in love at first sight. since that’s what happened. ok, so maybe it wasn’t at first sight but rather somewhere between the second and third. but still…

yesterday I met L. for the first time since her pregnancy. since she’s not pregnant anymore that also meant meeting a certain someone. A. we bonded while her mother glued stuff to a scrapbook-kind-of-looking-art-thingy.
thing is this whole head-over-heals-falling-for-part took me completely by surprise. I didn’t know I was a baby-person. cute, sure. and noisy, check. but walking around with one of them ‘til my arms felt like falling of so she wouldn’t cry and not minding it one bit. no sir. not me.
and that’s what I did. and by doing this I once again proved how naïve I really am. and how little I know about myself. pathetic really.

the one light in the endless tunnel of this year is that it seems that I really am on some kind of path to self-discovery and that I will learn a lot. if I choose to embrace it or just shrug it of is a whole other story. I guess we’ll just have to wait and see =)